Lindsay Lohan has friends that are worried she is suicidal, but she still sat down with Us Weekly for an interview. She call the breakup with Samantha Ronson "humiliating." She says "It’s absolute hell." She calls the night Samantha had five bodyguards keep her out of a family party "The worst night of my life."

The next day Ronson changed the locks on her Hollywood Hills home to keep Lohan out. On Monday, Ronson’s mom and sister asked police about obtaining a restraining order against Lohan, Beverly Hills Sgt. Nutall confirmed.

Naricissistic, selfish, and mean Lohan said through tears:

"I’m not a bad person and this is what happens. I was raised to treat people well, and I’m so tired of this drama."

Lohan says without Ronson she is "so alone."

Lohan whines:

"I’m a f–king 22-year-old girl who’s in love. I felt like I was in Mean Girls, but worse: Mean Girls was a movie."

The only person Lohan loves is herself. She is the mean girl.

Ronson had repeatedly tried to break up with Lohan over the past month, but each time a source says:

"Lindsay threatens to kill herself, she [Ronson] cares about her but wants out."

Lohan laughs upon hearing that, saying she’s okay.

"I’m just really hurt! The whole situation is sick."

We think Lohan loves herself too much to take her own life.

On the night Lohan was locked out of Ronson’s party more details have emerged.

When Lohan couldn’t party at Bar Marmont she then snuck into the bungalow area of the Chateau and went on a door-knocking rampage. The actress obviously heard word of an all-girls night in and even though she didn’t know the party peeps personally, she wanted to be part of the action.

"There was a knock-at-the door and Lindsay Lohan was there," an eyewitness told Tarts. "She was as orange as a carrot and her pupils were as big as quarters. She looked awful!"

Apparently the 22-year-old introduced herself and said "Let’s party!" but even when the ladies tried to close the door on her she continued to push back. Eventually the annoyed guests locked the door, but our girl stayed pounding away for another minute before (finally) getting the hint and moving on.

Lohan eventually turned to Twitter for comfort after the night fell flat, reportedly tweeting on her private page about how her DJ lover had been turning-the-tables with other ladies.

Lohan is desperate, lonely, and vulnerable right now. Someone is probably planning to move in to take over her life. Who will it be?

The mother and sister of Samantha Ronson asked Beverly Hills police how they could obtain a restraining order around 5 p.m. PST on Monday after Lindsay Lohan was banned from a Ronson family event. Beverly Hills Sgt. Nutall said:

"The restraining order is the best option. If she violates it, then she gets taken away.”

Lindsay looked extremely upset after the breakup, but is likely to go ballistic after she hears this knews. Sam has cut off all communication with Lindsay, because her family is afraid she’s going to do something crazier than in the past.

The Ronsons spoke openly to the officer about their situation. "She does these things to get attention," said Charlotte of Lohan’s recent actions. "She was trying to get into my party this weekend. We had to tell security to keep her out. Then she booked a room at the Chateau Marmont. Her room was right below… She also followed our brother Mark around."

"[Lindsay] was doing drugs," added Ann. "And we could not sleep that night at the Chateau. She was complaining about the music and noise coming from upstairs. She was trying to get attention, so that Sam could come down.”

“She cuts herself too,” Ann continued. “She is a cutter!”

Lindsay is going to try to spin this to make herself look like the victim, but she’ll still have to stay away from Sam.

Lindsay Lohan and Samantha Ronson have officially broken up. YAY! Lindsay issued the following statement:

"We are taking a brief break so I can focus on myself."

It’s always about Lohan focusing on herself. That could be interpreted to mean Lohan is always the problem, and the reason for the dramatic breakups. She can’t even keep a lesbian relationship going. Lindsay had insisted she and Sam had not broken up, until Sam’s family started making public statements today. Lohan will still blame the media rather than herself. That way Lohan doesn’t have to face reality.

A friend of Lohan and Ronson’s says:

"Sam’s family has made her swear that it’s really over. They are giving her all the support they can to keep her away from Lindsay."

Another friend said:

"Lindsay is going to try and twist the situation in her favor, but Sam clearly left her, not the other way around."

Like duh!

Over the weekend, Ronson changed the locks on her house, a friend of the pair confirms.

"Sam changed the locks on her house. Lindsay moved her stuff out as much as she could. She’s basically totally out of the house as far as her stuff and she’s not living there anymore. Lindsay was pretty devastated."

In the videos Lindsay WAS really upset about the breakup with Ronson. Lindsay really needs to see a psychiatrist to understand why people can’t stand to be around her for very long.

Lindsay Lohan was locked out of a family party Samantha Ronson was the DJ at the other day, and Lindsay is really upset that she couldn’t get in. Today Lindsay went off on Ronson accusing her of both cheating and doing drugs.

Lindsay made the allegations on her Twitter page that she keeps private. Ronson tried not to respond, but some of Ronson’s guests at the party did defend Ronson in Tweets on her Twitter page. Here’s what Lindsay said:

@jackdaniels9 I was right all along. Cheat
about 21 hours ago from TwitterBerry

@jackdaniels9 being cheated on does wonders to you
about 10 hours ago from web

@jackdaniels PLEASE leave me ALONE. and stop staying in the room below me, you’ve woken me and my mother up. go to bed. keep cheating u win
about 10 hours ago from web

@jackdaniels9 look, im doing this publicly because u&ur friends call people mag..so-you win, you broke my heart. now go away. i loved you
about 10 hours ago from web

@jackdaniels9 please go away. & go to bed. u work hard, & u need some rest. those around u are clearly negative influences. miss u.be wellxx
about 9 hours ago from web in reply to jackdaniels9

@jackdaniels9 ask ur sister 2 stop yelling profanity plz;;stop doing drugs. and tell charlotte to do more-she could loose a stone or 10.
about 9 hours ago from web in reply to jackdaniels9

@lilyroseallen OMG WOMAN! CAWLLLL MEEEEEEEE im meeting you in san fran babydoll
about 2 hours ago from web in reply to lilyroseallen

@lilyroseallen oy dafty fella ring me on my cellular woman. d message me for the new digiez
about 1 hour ago from web in reply to lilyroseallen

@jackdaniels9 oh- it’s like this? fine. Byebye
about 1 hour ago from web in reply to jackdaniels9

Reading these messages makes us realize Lindsay may have a mental disorder called projection. She really needs mental help.

Someday Lindsay will grow up, but that day will not be today.

Samantha Ronson was DJ-ing at Bar Marmont in Los Angeles on Friday night for her fashion designer sister, Charlotte Ronson’s I Heart Ronson clothing line for JCPenney. Ronson’s family gave strict instructions that Lindsay Lohan not be allowed into the event under any circumstances. When Lindsay showed up it took five bouncers to hold her back. A source said Lindsay knew she wouldn’t be allowed inside, but came anyway:

"Lindsay knew she was unwanted, but came anyway, to no avail."

Oh the drama. Lindsay is all about drama, because she has no self control. Another source said Ronson’s family went out of their way to insure Lindsay would not be able to get inside:

"Unless Lindsay rams a truck through the red carpet or skydives in, she won’t be here."

Although the party officially ended at 11 pm, Ronson’s family continued to party inside while Samantha spun records. A source said Samantha was fine without Lindsay there:

"She looked like she was in a great mood."

Other celebrities that did get inside were Nicole Richie, Molly Sims, Sting, Jewel, Paris Hilton, and Doug Reinhardt.

Lindsay is no longer on the D-List, or even the F-List anymore, she’s on the T-List (trash list).

On April 2nd, Lindsay acted equally inappropriately when she jumped onstage while Lily Allen performed Womanizer, and tried to sing with her. Lily ingored her.